God damn me. seriously, i deserve it. i wouldn’t be the least disappointed if i were to be struck down by a not-so-straying bolt of judgement tomorrow, or in the next couple hours for that matter. i wonder why God even puts up with wretches like me. then again, if i were to die tomorrow – or very soon in general – i guess i would be a bit disappointed for loss of opportunities to earn my Heaven Rewards Miles. also, death would be far too simple and easy a solution for me.
time to get back to the basics. i’m Scripture-bound.
“for though a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again, but the wicked are brought down by calamity.”
- Proverbs 24:16
” There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins.”
- Ecclesiastes 7:20
though His mercy is totally miscalculated, God help me.